About

I know you’re wondering who I am and whether I can help you; whether we’re a good fit and if we can work together.

My goal is to help you realize the better future you know HAS GOT to be possible. I mean, all these other people on the Internet seem to be building these fabulous lives and overcoming all their obstacles, so, surely you can do it too, right?

Is it hard to believe? I know it was hard for me to believe.

I struggled for a large part of my life and sometimes wondered if I could even make it through another day. Some days it was all I could do to believe in myself and feel like I’d made any progress at all.

But, I can tell you, change is possible and I know now that anyone can genuinely change on a fundamental level if they are committed and willing to try something different. You just have to know where to start.

I want to tell you everything you need to know in order to begin your journey and help you move forward in your own life to start finding the answers you’re looking for.

And, in order to do that, I need to start with a story…

Struggling to Run My Own Business, Raise Two Children, & Have a Great Relationship

It was a Thursday in 2010, and I was ready to run away from everything… I had been working 12 and 14-hour days for months on end while caring for my children and trying to balance a relationship with my husband. The result of all my efforts was clearly not working.

I had just come home from another full day at my Pilates studio where I had lost myself once again. You see, in addition to working with clients full-time, I was sacrificing all my “extra” downtime in an effort to help promote a leader in my field and gain her approval. I never felt she approved of me and, I understood later that, even if she had, it wouldn’t have made me feel any better.

It felt like this day was especially bad, though when I look back, it was not so different from the hundreds of days that had come before. It was just one more day living with my own lack of awareness and resistance to learning about my true self.

Waking Up To the Pain

My Pilates studio continued to be a drain on me: I had no time for myself, I was depressed, I felt unappreciated no matter how hard I tried to please and help others. Physically, I kept working harder, drinking in the evening to relieve the stress and had no time for my family. Resentment was kicking in along with the depression.

As if this wasn’t enough, around this same time life dealt another unfortunate hand in the form of a miscarriage—my third one. The world had become intolerable. My workaholism, drinking and depression, combined with the three miscarriages, all led to an unbearable sense of loss.

I was devastated and felt I was at the mercy of everything and everyone around me. It seemed nothing and no one was being very merciful.

Pain Leads to Unconscious Attempts to Relieve It…

 

Running from the Pain

In previous years, I became a pro at seeking geographic solutions to my internal problems. This meant I’d moved A LOT, thinking that each new apartment, or new city would have what I needed to finally be happy. Yet, no matter where I went, there I was. The scenery looked different, but the feelings, the depression, the problems were still the same.

More Knowledge, More Experience Didn’t Work Either

I also obsessively tried to use education in my career field to feel better, and stay busy to avoid my feelings. Neither one worked, so I didn’t feel better and the ache in my soul only intensified.

My Catalyst for Radical Change

Finally, on a telling day in the spring of 2010, the combination of work pressure and depression combined with the pressure of raising two little children had created a misery cocktail that led me to once again seek answers outside of myself, this time in the form of the serious consideration of a divorce.

I didn’t realize it at the time, but this was the catalyst I needed for radical change. And you know what? Divorce wasn’t the answer I was seeking, and am happy to say I’m still married.

Turns out that the solution I’d so desperately sought was there with me, within me, all along. I just never realized it, it never occurred to me that I held the answers.

Soon, after that day in 2010, I started on a new path of personal development and self discovery.

Understanding Brings Peace and Joy

My greatest progress came when I finally understood that I was not at the mercy of those around me, unless I allowed myself to be. While I can’t control others actions, or what they think about me, I certainly have control over my own actions, the choices I make, and the habitual thoughts I think.

Today my life is radically different from those dark times in 2010 and earlier. It’s not all roses and cake all day everyday, but today I have powerful tools to work with and I understand myself better than I ever realized I could.

I recognize that everyone’s path and everyone’s change is unique. We each have our own way we make meaning in the world and it’s not one size fits all.

I know I’m not alone in my struggle and frustration with life. Everyone has their own misery cocktail. After chasing answers outside of myself for so long and finally being blessed to realize the power I held within all along, well, that’s what drives me to want to help as many people as possible realize their power and the answers they hold.

If you are done accepting the life you have right now as “just the way it has to be,” you are ready to begin the process and the journey into a new way of being.

I work with people who are ready to question the way things are, and ready and willing to see and try things differently.

My philosophy is that lasting, sustainable change is possible and more attainable than you realize.

If you’re ready to explore your possibilities with me, let me know. I’d love to meet you for a 20 minute consultation to answer any questions you have and to see if we are a good match! (Fill out the form below and I’ll contact you to set up an appointment.)

Much love,

Sydney

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